people say when you experience pre-death experience everything around you comes in slow motion. You see that you will hit something, at high speed, and the road is slippery. you know that you will definitely hit hit the thing. but although you move in high speed towards the thing you gonna hit,everything around you slows down, loosing its speed. what will you think during that short time. i will let you figure it out.
Friday night 8 October 2010. A car crashed onto a yellow Lancer at traffic light inter-junction between benson Rd and coronation drive. The yellow lancer that was on Red light slowly make a turn to benson Rd. while a blue mirage coming from the opposite site failed to stop and bumped onto the yellow lancer.The front passenger seat suffered severe damage. innalillahi wainnalillahi rajiuun.
i was in the car
Friday, October 8, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Shuhada come on!!!
Last saturday bro musa'ab approached me to ask me whether i can help him teaching the malay kid tomorrow. Musaab you approach me on a wrong time. But he insisted. then i said
" ok kalau macam tu bolehlah bolehlah. but i'm going to be strict on them. I'm very particular about makhraj ok. just hope they can bear with me. tapi if you can get another person, it's better. I don't think i'm in a good mood to teach."
Many things upset me throughout the week that i had to endure. The most of it was being scolded by shaykh Abu abdillah. i still remember that sunday morning i wanted to check my memorisation with syaikh abu abdillah. I started reciting and he frequently stopped me because i pronounced the letter wrongly. He said i have to stop memorising and learn way to pronounce the letters properly, particularly mustaqim not mustakim (surah fatihah). after that day i never come to his class anymore and abu jaabir also said that Abu abdillah method of teaching is strict but it's good. Ya i can tell it's good in a way. although i dont go anymore to lutwyche (Because i dont have time) after that i try to learn how to pronounce the makraj properly with one hafiz from saudi, bro abdul rahman. Alhamdulillah I'm not saying my pronunciation is perfect but at least i'm better than some arabs. I recited surah fatihah to abu abdillah on his last day at lutwyche. He approved that my mustaqim pronunciation is correct alhamdulillah.
That's why from experience above, i'm very very angry with my ustadz in malaysia who did not emphasis much on pronunciation (Just joking- i glad to learn from You imam Kamarul zaman). if i was corrected from before, i dont have to be such in tense situation. That's why i told musaab i will be strict on those kids so they will not end up like me.
second thing that upset me on that day because i lost my only bicycle. actually when i realised that my bicylce was stolen, i dont feel really sad. just like "aik hilang pulak basikal aku". then i just went home by walking and then went to amyn centre. At amyn centre the tense increase because i started to ask myself
" Hey falihin shouldnt you be sad? You have lost something really important to you!!!".
then the tense keep coming on and i feel sad. Shaykh aslam approached me.
"Why you look so sad bro falihin." he asked. i just say i was just tired and we then talk about something else. when we about to finish i asked him
"Shaykh when we lost somthing what should we do?".
He smiled and said "say innaillahiwainnalillah hirajiuun.Allahumma'jurni fi musibati waflufli khayran minha. May Allah take away your musibah and replace it with something better." It relieved me a bit.
So the next day i came to the class. even though i still upset but when i look at those innocent kids. I just laugh hahaha.i was a bit strict but not something that i imagined (angry face and so on). a session with aiman was easy. then a new student came. Shuhada and faris.
one of my comrades taught faris while shuhada was left with me. I tried to speak to her in english (because other kids speak english)and my friend interrupt me saying she dont understand english. then i said ok.... i talk to her in bahasa melayu. still dont have any respond. i tried to open the iqra book and starts reciting. but she looked afraid and dont really pay attention. i lost my patient actually. but i still have the sabr.so accidentally i said to her in english to repeat the word after me.
Ops she dont know english. she was blurred. aiman interrupted.
"apalah tak pandai english. bukan susah pun nak paham english" he said to shuhada.
It felt that i want to lempang this boy.I remember when i was in standard one. same thing happened. Couldnt remember his name right now. One boy mocking at me saying i'm dumb because i cannot read. And as usual, if someone start mocking at you others will follow. I jump my fist straight to his face.
But this was not the case for shuhada. she felt sad. i know from looking at her face. I tried my new evolutionary method of teaching iqra on her
"shuhada cuba baca ni a'a " while my i put my hand on my head. she laughed.
"ni pulak ba. macam bentuk ni". i smiled. she laughed.
And only after i relate the letters with something like ta ada dua mata. then she showed some focus. Hey this case same as dyslexia. boring lesson because the teacher is boring. after the class shuhada was really friendly to me only and called me cikgu haha. I learned something from her. Kids, they know how to tickle you even when you are really upset. Unfortunately, the real ustazah is coming tomorrw so i'm not going to see shauhada and faris again.Hope they're ok and someday when i meet them, they able to speak english. i dont expct them to speak. even i learned to speak english 2 years ago, so inshaAllah they will. i Know budak kampung like shuhada,faris and me are at disadvantage.but how long we are going to be in disadvantage? so we need to change the notion.
Kata hm tuah "orang yang boleh memotivasikan diri sendiri dia hebat. tapi lagi hebat kalau dia dapat memotivasikan diri sendiri dan orang lain" . Allah says "verily along with hardship is relief" surah 94.
last year one friend told me that she was really sad. i told her this doa "O Allah there is no ease other that what you've made easy. if you please ease sorrow." i still can see, she still keep the dua' on her facebook's info. May be it's a reminder for me.
Allahu ta'aala a'lam
" ok kalau macam tu bolehlah bolehlah. but i'm going to be strict on them. I'm very particular about makhraj ok. just hope they can bear with me. tapi if you can get another person, it's better. I don't think i'm in a good mood to teach."
Many things upset me throughout the week that i had to endure. The most of it was being scolded by shaykh Abu abdillah. i still remember that sunday morning i wanted to check my memorisation with syaikh abu abdillah. I started reciting and he frequently stopped me because i pronounced the letter wrongly. He said i have to stop memorising and learn way to pronounce the letters properly, particularly mustaqim not mustakim (surah fatihah). after that day i never come to his class anymore and abu jaabir also said that Abu abdillah method of teaching is strict but it's good. Ya i can tell it's good in a way. although i dont go anymore to lutwyche (Because i dont have time) after that i try to learn how to pronounce the makraj properly with one hafiz from saudi, bro abdul rahman. Alhamdulillah I'm not saying my pronunciation is perfect but at least i'm better than some arabs. I recited surah fatihah to abu abdillah on his last day at lutwyche. He approved that my mustaqim pronunciation is correct alhamdulillah.
That's why from experience above, i'm very very angry with my ustadz in malaysia who did not emphasis much on pronunciation (Just joking- i glad to learn from You imam Kamarul zaman). if i was corrected from before, i dont have to be such in tense situation. That's why i told musaab i will be strict on those kids so they will not end up like me.
second thing that upset me on that day because i lost my only bicycle. actually when i realised that my bicylce was stolen, i dont feel really sad. just like "aik hilang pulak basikal aku". then i just went home by walking and then went to amyn centre. At amyn centre the tense increase because i started to ask myself
" Hey falihin shouldnt you be sad? You have lost something really important to you!!!".
then the tense keep coming on and i feel sad. Shaykh aslam approached me.
"Why you look so sad bro falihin." he asked. i just say i was just tired and we then talk about something else. when we about to finish i asked him
"Shaykh when we lost somthing what should we do?".
He smiled and said "say innaillahiwainnalillah hirajiuun.Allahumma'jurni fi musibati waflufli khayran minha. May Allah take away your musibah and replace it with something better." It relieved me a bit.
So the next day i came to the class. even though i still upset but when i look at those innocent kids. I just laugh hahaha.i was a bit strict but not something that i imagined (angry face and so on). a session with aiman was easy. then a new student came. Shuhada and faris.
one of my comrades taught faris while shuhada was left with me. I tried to speak to her in english (because other kids speak english)and my friend interrupt me saying she dont understand english. then i said ok.... i talk to her in bahasa melayu. still dont have any respond. i tried to open the iqra book and starts reciting. but she looked afraid and dont really pay attention. i lost my patient actually. but i still have the sabr.so accidentally i said to her in english to repeat the word after me.
Ops she dont know english. she was blurred. aiman interrupted.
"apalah tak pandai english. bukan susah pun nak paham english" he said to shuhada.
It felt that i want to lempang this boy.I remember when i was in standard one. same thing happened. Couldnt remember his name right now. One boy mocking at me saying i'm dumb because i cannot read. And as usual, if someone start mocking at you others will follow. I jump my fist straight to his face.
But this was not the case for shuhada. she felt sad. i know from looking at her face. I tried my new evolutionary method of teaching iqra on her
"shuhada cuba baca ni a'a " while my i put my hand on my head. she laughed.
"ni pulak ba. macam bentuk ni". i smiled. she laughed.
And only after i relate the letters with something like ta ada dua mata. then she showed some focus. Hey this case same as dyslexia. boring lesson because the teacher is boring. after the class shuhada was really friendly to me only and called me cikgu haha. I learned something from her. Kids, they know how to tickle you even when you are really upset. Unfortunately, the real ustazah is coming tomorrw so i'm not going to see shauhada and faris again.Hope they're ok and someday when i meet them, they able to speak english. i dont expct them to speak. even i learned to speak english 2 years ago, so inshaAllah they will. i Know budak kampung like shuhada,faris and me are at disadvantage.but how long we are going to be in disadvantage? so we need to change the notion.
Kata hm tuah "orang yang boleh memotivasikan diri sendiri dia hebat. tapi lagi hebat kalau dia dapat memotivasikan diri sendiri dan orang lain" . Allah says "verily along with hardship is relief" surah 94.
last year one friend told me that she was really sad. i told her this doa "O Allah there is no ease other that what you've made easy. if you please ease sorrow." i still can see, she still keep the dua' on her facebook's info. May be it's a reminder for me.
Allahu ta'aala a'lam
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