it's not easy to change.I still remember when i was in primary school i changed from a naughty boy to a 'pious' one. i used to bully lot sa people when i was in standard 1. Entering standard 2 i started to change my attitude after botakkan my head. I started to wear a songkok to school and since that day i became a good boy.
But still bring pious only on name, but not in knowledge per se, give a lot of disadvantage for me. The hardest part that I had to do this by myself. At that time i received no support at all.
I used to be a lazy student. in exam i always got low marks and even my teacher once said that i will not succeed in life (may be she said this to me after i lied to her.The terrible 1999 tragedy.life during that time as no one love me anymore.my bad)
One program organised by former semenda senior changed my perspective. I used to be the last in the rangking climbed to top ranking.
I used to have good motivation before. But presently, I am confused about myself.i'm thinking a lot lately.I feel sad, feel zero.
many people said they want to be like me, know many stuff, lead many projects. But actually they have something that i dont. And should i be ....
hmmmm......
sesaknya.
